That means, basically bump English to the side, cause my culture is taking over!
I am in such a good mood! I had 2 really good days so far (: I mean, well I will explain,
Thursday, we did a Math contest for Period A, so I didn't do gym, then we had Geo, which actually does fly by really quick, which is a good think because it is my least favorite class, I don't really know why, I just am not that interested. Then we got a spare because of the Math contest for period C. It was a lot of fun, cause I chilled with M for that, and lunch! It was great because I never really hang out with her one on one. AWESOME! Then it was French, and well I just love the word "biscuit". It is so funny, me and my OTHER friend M, well we just couldn't stop laughing because we thought it was pronounced "bisKUHT" but ACTUALLY it is pronounced "bisQWE" so we were just laughing really hard. The fact that she has this colorful xylaphone really does NOT help. English was pretty chill too (: My friend B told me how happy I looked and well we can all guess what it was about (hint it rhymes with getting low). Apparently, I surprised her, and myself too.
Then TODAY, we played table tennis, and well I used to be a really competetive person, then I realize well those people really don't have a life. Guess I let go of that too. (: ANYWHO, me and my friend L were just having a blast, dancing because we lost ;) . We definitely were the party group, we put a smile on everyone we versed faces. (: That to me is a real win. OKAY TO CHEESY. umm Geo was fast, THANK GOD. Work class (: Math, well my teacher picked on me. AND we got our tests back, I did great (: I am not bragging, I am just really happy with my mark! We got out early too! WHOOT. Lunch was pretty chill, me and my friend B were just laughing about the randomest things. In French, I had to do a presentation. It was just 30 seconds though. It was pretty funny actually. Some pretty funny stuff happened at the beginning of class (: I AM MAKING FRIENDS GUYS. I am so happy (: . Also we went to the computer lab, and my computer stopped working, so I had to sit by, well I will call him V. ANYWAY, I had to sit by him and I pretty much just helped him work, it was fun! Cause the French was kinda stupid. Seriously. English flashed by really quick to, just a writing class. And after school, I well, I had a good time (: .
SO MY DAYS WERE PRETTY AWESOME.
I am back to my old self, after 2 weeks of deep S. Yeah, haha WAY OVER THAT. I guess she will be back, but for now, I'M BACK TO HYPER ACTIVE~! YAYAY!
SUP TAYLOR? I am still waiting for that reply to my email....no pressure or anything. THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I GET TO TALK TO YOU. SO, sup? haha, LOVE AND MISS YOU <3 Good night! or morning, Or are you sleeping.....
HEY! Guys this song is brown but I don't care, LISTEN TO IT~! It's a fast song, called Desi Boys. My title is actually lyrics from it (: PARTY SONG! <3 ;)
I am in a dance-y mood, so IMMA GO DANCE. SEE YA.
Night <3
"Kudiyan de dil utte rule karange"
("we are going to rule the girls hearts")
"Just let go and smile for a while"
Friday, 24 February 2012
Wednesday, 22 February 2012
Your Eyes Speak The Truth.
Did you know that? Somehow I am pretty good at hiding it though, because people never seem to know when I am lying. Which isn't a good thing guys.
I am not saying you don't pay attention, you are just a bit careless. I am not afraid to admit it. You don't really see when you look.
Anyway, I didn't mean to make a harsh post, I was actually going to do the opposite, I wanted to talk about something, but I am not so sure about it.
Something got me thinking. If I was in a tough spot, my reputation was ruined, would you guys stay by my side, or would you be quick to judge me without listening to me first? I know running away would be the easiest option in this case; but it won't help. I would be brave and stay. Even if I think running away would be for the better; I would stay because I would want to fix everything. That doesn't mean if one of my "friends" realized the truth, I would forgive them easily. I mean they believed something without talking to me about it. That just shows me I shouldn't trust them.
I was just mentioning that because I just wondered what would happen if it happened. I would be completely alone. I don't know what I would do.
Also I want to answer a question my friend B asked me. I DON'T KNOW. You asked me something in class, and honestly, I might have said something else, but I honestly don't know. I used to. I will admit that, but right now I don't know. But I do know that I sure as hell don't WANT to. I wish every night for it to just pass. Life would be so much simpler. I am surprised that you saw it in my eyes. I thought for a minute that you could actually see the truth. But then you believed what I said. Well, I am not sure if you did, but you sure as hell didn't push it. I would have. I do. Just be honest with me. If you think I am lying push me to tell you the truth. Because it will help, no matter how much I refuse to tell you anything. If you were a good friend, you would push.
I am not yelling guys, just one of those harsh truth kind of things. I apologize if I offend anyone, but I am not sorry. Just deal with it, but don't come crying to me, because you chose to read this.
On a lighter note, the......er, well lets just say this thing, I am finally starting to let go, I realize that it isn't going to go anywhere and it isn't anywhere. and hopefully my heart will listen too. I am not going to lie to myself anymore. This time it is actually working. It's time to free myself. Today. I like this feeling. (:
Taylor, I wish you were here, miss you everyday <3
Night <3
"And I'm on my way to believing..."
I am not saying you don't pay attention, you are just a bit careless. I am not afraid to admit it. You don't really see when you look.
Anyway, I didn't mean to make a harsh post, I was actually going to do the opposite, I wanted to talk about something, but I am not so sure about it.
Something got me thinking. If I was in a tough spot, my reputation was ruined, would you guys stay by my side, or would you be quick to judge me without listening to me first? I know running away would be the easiest option in this case; but it won't help. I would be brave and stay. Even if I think running away would be for the better; I would stay because I would want to fix everything. That doesn't mean if one of my "friends" realized the truth, I would forgive them easily. I mean they believed something without talking to me about it. That just shows me I shouldn't trust them.
I was just mentioning that because I just wondered what would happen if it happened. I would be completely alone. I don't know what I would do.
Also I want to answer a question my friend B asked me. I DON'T KNOW. You asked me something in class, and honestly, I might have said something else, but I honestly don't know. I used to. I will admit that, but right now I don't know. But I do know that I sure as hell don't WANT to. I wish every night for it to just pass. Life would be so much simpler. I am surprised that you saw it in my eyes. I thought for a minute that you could actually see the truth. But then you believed what I said. Well, I am not sure if you did, but you sure as hell didn't push it. I would have. I do. Just be honest with me. If you think I am lying push me to tell you the truth. Because it will help, no matter how much I refuse to tell you anything. If you were a good friend, you would push.
I am not yelling guys, just one of those harsh truth kind of things. I apologize if I offend anyone, but I am not sorry. Just deal with it, but don't come crying to me, because you chose to read this.
On a lighter note, the......er, well lets just say this thing, I am finally starting to let go, I realize that it isn't going to go anywhere and it isn't anywhere. and hopefully my heart will listen too. I am not going to lie to myself anymore. This time it is actually working. It's time to free myself. Today. I like this feeling. (:
Taylor, I wish you were here, miss you everyday <3
Night <3
"And I'm on my way to believing..."
Tuesday, 14 February 2012
Out Of Sight, But Never Out Of Mind.
Okay so, a few of my friends have been mentioning how deep I have become and I have one more little thing to mention before I move on. Well maybe not one, but it's just on my mind.
So my friend Taylor mentioned how she thinks everything happens for a reason. I agree with her, I believe that whatever your destiny is, it is your destiny. But I also believe that you can write your own destiny. Not the past, you can never change the past. Unless of course you chose to forget it. But you can change the present and the future. It's your destiny, you do have the power to change it if you will it to happen.
Okay thats all (:
Haha, I am not done blogging yet! Just that topic for now. I want to try being a little more light hearted. You see the me in blog and the me in school are different people. But they are the same too. I just chose to be a bit more cheerful, I guess you could say, at school. Seriously. If you see me without a smile, something is up.
Anyway, so onto my title. I really mean it. Taylor, you may be gone, but I am always thinking about you. It's kind of hard not to when you are worried why your friend isn't speaking much...BLOG GIRL! And then there is the fact of when I like a guy, he is the only thing I can think of. Every little thing reminds me of that guy. I can't help it either. But forget guys, even though it is Valentine's Day, I feel that this day is made for all kinds of love, NOT just for the love between a boy and girl (in a boyfriend-girlfriend kind of way). I MISS YOU TAYLOR~! Come back to Winnipeg~! I feel like something is missing everyday. And seeing K open your old locker makes me sad )': Come back and claim it! I personally liked it better when she was on the other end of the hallway... SO YEAH. Come back, I mean at least for a visit (: .
Well I have nothing else to say but,
HAPPY TUESDAY (:
And Happy Valentine's Day...I guess. (It's a love-hate relationship).
Night <3
"And I know time will heal it"
So my friend Taylor mentioned how she thinks everything happens for a reason. I agree with her, I believe that whatever your destiny is, it is your destiny. But I also believe that you can write your own destiny. Not the past, you can never change the past. Unless of course you chose to forget it. But you can change the present and the future. It's your destiny, you do have the power to change it if you will it to happen.
Okay thats all (:
Haha, I am not done blogging yet! Just that topic for now. I want to try being a little more light hearted. You see the me in blog and the me in school are different people. But they are the same too. I just chose to be a bit more cheerful, I guess you could say, at school. Seriously. If you see me without a smile, something is up.
Anyway, so onto my title. I really mean it. Taylor, you may be gone, but I am always thinking about you. It's kind of hard not to when you are worried why your friend isn't speaking much...BLOG GIRL! And then there is the fact of when I like a guy, he is the only thing I can think of. Every little thing reminds me of that guy. I can't help it either. But forget guys, even though it is Valentine's Day, I feel that this day is made for all kinds of love, NOT just for the love between a boy and girl (in a boyfriend-girlfriend kind of way). I MISS YOU TAYLOR~! Come back to Winnipeg~! I feel like something is missing everyday. And seeing K open your old locker makes me sad )': Come back and claim it! I personally liked it better when she was on the other end of the hallway... SO YEAH. Come back, I mean at least for a visit (: .
Well I have nothing else to say but,
HAPPY TUESDAY (:
And Happy Valentine's Day...I guess. (It's a love-hate relationship).
Night <3
"And I know time will heal it"
Wednesday, 8 February 2012
Tried, and Tired.
Two words spelled almost the same, but mean completely different things. The difference for me today being that I have done one and am feeling the other. You can put the pieces together.
I have tried. I have tried so much to try catching up with friends that I feel are fading away from me. I have tried to show people I am not just the girl who cares about having fun, I am a girl too. I have feelings, feelings that as much as I don't want to admit, get hurt easily. I hate admiting how weak I am. I try not to show it, and it usually works. But somehow, I am still not satisfied.
I am tired because of trying so much and not being successful. I am tired of people not catching on the line I am throwing them and helping me. If you get what that means. But most of all, I am tired of lying. To myself and to others. The only reason I truely lie is because I want no one to worry about me. I fel bad that people are wasting their time worried about me.
It seems like I just keep getting bad news; it's not a surprise anymore. When asked if I am okay, I do what I do best. I lie. I say I am okay, I say I am fine, but I'm NOT. I am just so sick of the question "are you okay?" because guess what, people are usually never okay when you ask that!
I don't give a damn anymore. I don't care what people think about this blog, I just want to vent. And hey it is your choice to read this, no one is forcing you. This has just been building up inside of me for so long it just needed to be let out. I might go back to the same girl who wants everyone else to be happy first later, but for now, this is how I feel. How I REALLY feel. And I might feel embarrassed when I read this, but I am not going to be sorry.
I might just be having a bad week, or maybe this is meant to be. My friend Taylor said that everything happens for a reason, I just want to know what reason is making me feel like crap.
Taylor also mentioned something else that made me stop and think, this is a bit less of a vent, and more of a girl who is just too tired to do anything else. She said it was okay to break down every once and a while. Putting up a strong act for a while will make you do that. I agree with her, I just realized that today. I can feel a break coming in me; it comes in the form of laughter or crying. I just hope it comes soon. And I hope it helps me make a decision.
Well now I am tired, physically too. I'll post soon, lets hope its something more happy (I highly doubt it since Taylor is moving Friday </3).
I will miss you Taylor, and you have helped me so much with your latest post <3 Love you to the moon and stars and way beyond <3. (':
Night <3
"I'm not going to take it no more"
I have tried. I have tried so much to try catching up with friends that I feel are fading away from me. I have tried to show people I am not just the girl who cares about having fun, I am a girl too. I have feelings, feelings that as much as I don't want to admit, get hurt easily. I hate admiting how weak I am. I try not to show it, and it usually works. But somehow, I am still not satisfied.
I am tired because of trying so much and not being successful. I am tired of people not catching on the line I am throwing them and helping me. If you get what that means. But most of all, I am tired of lying. To myself and to others. The only reason I truely lie is because I want no one to worry about me. I fel bad that people are wasting their time worried about me.
It seems like I just keep getting bad news; it's not a surprise anymore. When asked if I am okay, I do what I do best. I lie. I say I am okay, I say I am fine, but I'm NOT. I am just so sick of the question "are you okay?" because guess what, people are usually never okay when you ask that!
I don't give a damn anymore. I don't care what people think about this blog, I just want to vent. And hey it is your choice to read this, no one is forcing you. This has just been building up inside of me for so long it just needed to be let out. I might go back to the same girl who wants everyone else to be happy first later, but for now, this is how I feel. How I REALLY feel. And I might feel embarrassed when I read this, but I am not going to be sorry.
I might just be having a bad week, or maybe this is meant to be. My friend Taylor said that everything happens for a reason, I just want to know what reason is making me feel like crap.
Taylor also mentioned something else that made me stop and think, this is a bit less of a vent, and more of a girl who is just too tired to do anything else. She said it was okay to break down every once and a while. Putting up a strong act for a while will make you do that. I agree with her, I just realized that today. I can feel a break coming in me; it comes in the form of laughter or crying. I just hope it comes soon. And I hope it helps me make a decision.
Well now I am tired, physically too. I'll post soon, lets hope its something more happy (I highly doubt it since Taylor is moving Friday </3).
I will miss you Taylor, and you have helped me so much with your latest post <3 Love you to the moon and stars and way beyond <3. (':
Night <3
"I'm not going to take it no more"
Monday, 6 February 2012
Choices.
So I never really got around to telling you about my New Years Resolution did I? Well, my New Years resolution is to be unexpected; surprising in a good way. I think I am doing okay, but what do you think? I have started with my music; guess I could do some more....
Well we have many choices, now don't we? In the future, in the present, the past; the point is that we make choices that affect us. Some more then others but they affect us nonetheless. Some choices I have made are not the best; I mean I tend to not forgive a friend for a while; I don't really believe in second chances unless they have truely earned, and even though I grant them, I tend to be cautious for a while. Another choice I make is to not trust anyone. I trust, in all 2 people. Two of my best friends. Others I am open too, but I am not going to tell them anything important. I feel I am more protected that way; but I need to just let go; I can be more open; slowly starting to trust people, not just like that that, but, baby steps. I know some choices are hard to make too. Where it's about love, or friendship, or telling the truth. Even about our future. I have mentioned I want to be a vet; let me explain why I have made this choice.
I love animals, I love helping them in any way I can. I can't imagine doing anything else now. I dream of having many pets; living in the country near a forest; helping injured wild animals heal then letting them back into the wild. I can see myself doing all these things. I feel like all I can be is a vet; I can't see myself as anything else. Being with animals makes me feel safe, yet adventerous; it makes me feel loved, and cherished. I never want to let go of that feeling. Once I embrace it.
I don't know about many choices, nor how hard they can be. I can't relate to some because I haven't gone through them. Like making the choice to leave a loved one; or even just breaking up with a boy (or girl). But I have heard stories, it makes me feel like I have lived them. And just because I haven't lived them; doesn't mean I still can't give a bit of advice.
Other choices are made easily, but when actually trying to carry out the choice, well it can be a struggle.I know this, it happens to everyone; everyone who makes a New Years resolution and others; resolutions are made easy; but hard to actually succeed. Take mine for example; being unexpected, it's not something you can exactly buy now is it? I have to work, or I can just be myself, and surprise even me. You just need to have the will to do whatever choice you want to make. If you give up; either the choice wasn't for you, or you just stopped trying because it was too hard. Like asking for forgiveness.
Choices reminds me of a poem. One my friend M posted in December; it's about two roads. A choice. Too me, the poem is about either taking the road someone else makes for you or making a road for yourself. One not too many people take. That's my version of the poem. Only the strong; the ones who really believe they can do it, take it.
I am going to talk about some choices I am going to make. You see I am a bit of a people pleaser. I want to let that go. I please people because it makes me feel good that I made someone else happy. But sometimes I have to let go of what makes me happy to achieve that. My smile can be fake. So I am going to start pleasing someone else. Me. I think I really deserve it. (: It's time to make my smile real. I am done doing that, it's time to go my own way.
Well I have said a lot, and at this point I am just rambling, so I guess I could ramble about my day (:
It was great! First day of the semester; one that I will actually like too. I love all my classes. Even though we didn't get to do gym (we had to learn Fitness in the classroom), I still think that this semester is going to be amazing (: I can feel it. I LOVE LE FRENCH. It seriously makes my life <3
I also want to mention that my title in the last post, it didn't really fit my actual post unless you really could see the meaning behind the writing. It feels fantastic to let go; thats all I meant and all I mean.
Something completely off topic; I just want to talk about my favorite pastimes. What I like to do; I love rain, I love dancing it rain. I love to laugh, it just makes me feel so free. (: I of course like to write and sing; its a passion but I don't want to make it a global thing. I love watching the stars; one of my favorite memories is of me and my friends just lying on the grass or on the ramp by the lake at grade nine camp late at night just looking at the stars. I actually saw the Big Dipper for the first time. I love looking at the moon too; it is just so big! I love new moons, and full moons. Even the perfect cresent. Reading takes me to a whole other world; so does swimming; I get to experience something magical. Sometimes I wish, well actually all the time I wish I could just breath underwater so I can stay down there longer. I love campfires too; bonfires. Beach ones especially. I love any kind of fire actually. It is so warm and makes me smile, which makes me feel happy AND free. (:
Giants won the SuperBowl, I told you a change was coming.
Well I think thats all I am going to say tonight...haha I have said a lot...to those who hate to read well I apologize; but I won't say sorry, because well I don't believe in saying sorry if I don't mean it. Thats a lesson I think everyone should learn.
Night <3
"Is okay to look fat"
"A princess never chases a chicken"
"You can go your own way"
"Try."
"Loving you, isn't the right thing to do"
Well we have many choices, now don't we? In the future, in the present, the past; the point is that we make choices that affect us. Some more then others but they affect us nonetheless. Some choices I have made are not the best; I mean I tend to not forgive a friend for a while; I don't really believe in second chances unless they have truely earned, and even though I grant them, I tend to be cautious for a while. Another choice I make is to not trust anyone. I trust, in all 2 people. Two of my best friends. Others I am open too, but I am not going to tell them anything important. I feel I am more protected that way; but I need to just let go; I can be more open; slowly starting to trust people, not just like that that, but, baby steps. I know some choices are hard to make too. Where it's about love, or friendship, or telling the truth. Even about our future. I have mentioned I want to be a vet; let me explain why I have made this choice.
I love animals, I love helping them in any way I can. I can't imagine doing anything else now. I dream of having many pets; living in the country near a forest; helping injured wild animals heal then letting them back into the wild. I can see myself doing all these things. I feel like all I can be is a vet; I can't see myself as anything else. Being with animals makes me feel safe, yet adventerous; it makes me feel loved, and cherished. I never want to let go of that feeling. Once I embrace it.
I don't know about many choices, nor how hard they can be. I can't relate to some because I haven't gone through them. Like making the choice to leave a loved one; or even just breaking up with a boy (or girl). But I have heard stories, it makes me feel like I have lived them. And just because I haven't lived them; doesn't mean I still can't give a bit of advice.
Other choices are made easily, but when actually trying to carry out the choice, well it can be a struggle.I know this, it happens to everyone; everyone who makes a New Years resolution and others; resolutions are made easy; but hard to actually succeed. Take mine for example; being unexpected, it's not something you can exactly buy now is it? I have to work, or I can just be myself, and surprise even me. You just need to have the will to do whatever choice you want to make. If you give up; either the choice wasn't for you, or you just stopped trying because it was too hard. Like asking for forgiveness.
Choices reminds me of a poem. One my friend M posted in December; it's about two roads. A choice. Too me, the poem is about either taking the road someone else makes for you or making a road for yourself. One not too many people take. That's my version of the poem. Only the strong; the ones who really believe they can do it, take it.
I am going to talk about some choices I am going to make. You see I am a bit of a people pleaser. I want to let that go. I please people because it makes me feel good that I made someone else happy. But sometimes I have to let go of what makes me happy to achieve that. My smile can be fake. So I am going to start pleasing someone else. Me. I think I really deserve it. (: It's time to make my smile real. I am done doing that, it's time to go my own way.
Well I have said a lot, and at this point I am just rambling, so I guess I could ramble about my day (:
It was great! First day of the semester; one that I will actually like too. I love all my classes. Even though we didn't get to do gym (we had to learn Fitness in the classroom), I still think that this semester is going to be amazing (: I can feel it. I LOVE LE FRENCH. It seriously makes my life <3
I also want to mention that my title in the last post, it didn't really fit my actual post unless you really could see the meaning behind the writing. It feels fantastic to let go; thats all I meant and all I mean.
Something completely off topic; I just want to talk about my favorite pastimes. What I like to do; I love rain, I love dancing it rain. I love to laugh, it just makes me feel so free. (: I of course like to write and sing; its a passion but I don't want to make it a global thing. I love watching the stars; one of my favorite memories is of me and my friends just lying on the grass or on the ramp by the lake at grade nine camp late at night just looking at the stars. I actually saw the Big Dipper for the first time. I love looking at the moon too; it is just so big! I love new moons, and full moons. Even the perfect cresent. Reading takes me to a whole other world; so does swimming; I get to experience something magical. Sometimes I wish, well actually all the time I wish I could just breath underwater so I can stay down there longer. I love campfires too; bonfires. Beach ones especially. I love any kind of fire actually. It is so warm and makes me smile, which makes me feel happy AND free. (:
Giants won the SuperBowl, I told you a change was coming.
Well I think thats all I am going to say tonight...haha I have said a lot...to those who hate to read well I apologize; but I won't say sorry, because well I don't believe in saying sorry if I don't mean it. Thats a lesson I think everyone should learn.
Night <3
"Is okay to look fat"
"A princess never chases a chicken"
"You can go your own way"
"Try."
"Loving you, isn't the right thing to do"
Sunday, 5 February 2012
Le Fantastique.
I am currently watching the superbowl and OF COURSE the team I am cheering for is LOSING. It's like a curse; the team I cheer for is ALWAYS losing. Has been for well ever.
Other then that, exams are done! School tomorrow, and a brand new semester (: THANK THE LORD I AM DONE SCIENCE. I AM MOVING ON TO LE FRENCH. LE FREEEEEEEEEEEENCH.
My second semester consists of Gym, Geo, Math, Le French, and English; all in that order. I am happy cause I feel like this semester will be more fun and easier. I really didn't like Science and Keyboarding was just BORING. I only liked the last couple of classes because I got to just go on the computer for fun, which means of course I blogged. Math, English, and History were good classes though, I will definitely miss History and my English teacher ):
So here's to a brand new start, I guess you could call it that, because it definitely is going to be different. Taylor is moving, soon, like a few days. I can't change that but that doesn't mean I like it. I really don't want her to go, but I have to let her. Forgetting her is something completely different, it will never occur. I can't forget someone I care about, ever <3
Other then that, since I have nothing to study for I am focusing on my music, I haven't written anything since My Sweet Little Soldier, I guess I just have no inspiration. I do have a few lyrics, and I think I have something that will start soon, and surprise surprise, it's a love song. I haven't written one yet actually, one that I like. I have written a song about love that will never die, a song about believing, and a song about letting go of a love that won't last. I really want to write a love song. I am starting and I have a couple ideas, of other songs, it depends how strong I feel about it for me to actually write one that I would show.
I think it's time for me to give some advice, some advice people might not like, but its realistic. We should all learn to let go. Not of friends, not even of love, but of choices. People might not like the choices you make; and of course it depends what choice it is; but if its of following your dreams; you should not make people happy; especially if it won't make you happy. Sometimes you should focus on yourself , on what makes you smile. Making people happy might make you feel good, but will you love what your doing? Just think about it.
Letting go means different things; if its about something unrealistic like doing cartwheels on the ceiling or admitting a friend is moving. For me it's the later. But just cause your letting go, doesn't mean you should just stop. Take flying for example. You can't physically jump up and expect to stay there, but you can soar in other ways; like in a talent, or standing up to a bully. Doing something that your happy doing and you feel good about it. Like saving whales. Even helping a kitten of a high branch in a tree.
I am learning to fly, as my title shows. I haven't mentioned it but; I want to have that feeling inside that makes me feel like I am in the clouds; not cloud nine particularly, I don't want to find love, no matter how impaitent I am, I have to admit I am scared. Of what might happen and what will happen. I want to fly. I have started, one step at a time. I finally showed you my songs, and one day I might even find it in me to sing them, out loud, for you to hear. I also just want to show the world who I am, what better then to start in a small place like this? I am starting to fly, like the baby chick starting to flap their wings. I can't wait till I actually fly.
I want to follow my dreams. Just so we are clear, I don't want to sing for a living, it's a pass time. I hate how my life would never be mine again; it would be everyones to see. I want to be a vet. I love animals and I can see myself living in the country, helping ALL animals. It is something I love and something that makes me feel good.
Other then that, my team is losing by 5 points. I think they can actually win, I feel a change coming.
Night <3
"You gotta blame someone"
"Be the change you want to be"
Other then that, exams are done! School tomorrow, and a brand new semester (: THANK THE LORD I AM DONE SCIENCE. I AM MOVING ON TO LE FRENCH. LE FREEEEEEEEEEEENCH.
My second semester consists of Gym, Geo, Math, Le French, and English; all in that order. I am happy cause I feel like this semester will be more fun and easier. I really didn't like Science and Keyboarding was just BORING. I only liked the last couple of classes because I got to just go on the computer for fun, which means of course I blogged. Math, English, and History were good classes though, I will definitely miss History and my English teacher ):
So here's to a brand new start, I guess you could call it that, because it definitely is going to be different. Taylor is moving, soon, like a few days. I can't change that but that doesn't mean I like it. I really don't want her to go, but I have to let her. Forgetting her is something completely different, it will never occur. I can't forget someone I care about, ever <3
Other then that, since I have nothing to study for I am focusing on my music, I haven't written anything since My Sweet Little Soldier, I guess I just have no inspiration. I do have a few lyrics, and I think I have something that will start soon, and surprise surprise, it's a love song. I haven't written one yet actually, one that I like. I have written a song about love that will never die, a song about believing, and a song about letting go of a love that won't last. I really want to write a love song. I am starting and I have a couple ideas, of other songs, it depends how strong I feel about it for me to actually write one that I would show.
I think it's time for me to give some advice, some advice people might not like, but its realistic. We should all learn to let go. Not of friends, not even of love, but of choices. People might not like the choices you make; and of course it depends what choice it is; but if its of following your dreams; you should not make people happy; especially if it won't make you happy. Sometimes you should focus on yourself , on what makes you smile. Making people happy might make you feel good, but will you love what your doing? Just think about it.
Letting go means different things; if its about something unrealistic like doing cartwheels on the ceiling or admitting a friend is moving. For me it's the later. But just cause your letting go, doesn't mean you should just stop. Take flying for example. You can't physically jump up and expect to stay there, but you can soar in other ways; like in a talent, or standing up to a bully. Doing something that your happy doing and you feel good about it. Like saving whales. Even helping a kitten of a high branch in a tree.
I am learning to fly, as my title shows. I haven't mentioned it but; I want to have that feeling inside that makes me feel like I am in the clouds; not cloud nine particularly, I don't want to find love, no matter how impaitent I am, I have to admit I am scared. Of what might happen and what will happen. I want to fly. I have started, one step at a time. I finally showed you my songs, and one day I might even find it in me to sing them, out loud, for you to hear. I also just want to show the world who I am, what better then to start in a small place like this? I am starting to fly, like the baby chick starting to flap their wings. I can't wait till I actually fly.
I want to follow my dreams. Just so we are clear, I don't want to sing for a living, it's a pass time. I hate how my life would never be mine again; it would be everyones to see. I want to be a vet. I love animals and I can see myself living in the country, helping ALL animals. It is something I love and something that makes me feel good.
Other then that, my team is losing by 5 points. I think they can actually win, I feel a change coming.
Night <3
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"Be the change you want to be"
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