Your Eyes Speak The Truth.

Did you know that? Somehow I am pretty good at hiding it though, because people never seem to know when I am lying. Which isn't a good thing guys.

I am not saying you don't pay attention, you are just a bit careless. I am not afraid to admit it. You don't really see when you look.

Anyway, I didn't mean to make a harsh post, I was actually going to do the opposite, I wanted to talk about something, but I am not so sure about it.

Something got me thinking. If I was in a tough spot, my reputation was ruined, would you guys stay by my side, or would you be quick to judge me without listening to me first? I know running away would be the easiest option in this case; but it won't help. I would be brave and stay. Even if I think running away would be for the better; I would stay because I would want to fix everything. That doesn't mean if one of my "friends" realized the truth, I would forgive them easily. I mean they believed something without talking to me about it. That just shows me I shouldn't trust them.

I was just mentioning that because I just wondered what would happen if it happened. I would be completely alone. I don't know what I would do.

Also I want to answer a question my friend B asked me. I DON'T KNOW. You asked me something in class, and honestly, I might have said something else, but I honestly don't know. I used to. I will admit that, but right now I don't know. But I do know that I sure as hell don't WANT to. I wish every night for it to just pass. Life would be so much simpler. I am surprised that you saw it in my eyes. I thought for a minute that you could actually see the truth. But then you believed what I said. Well, I am not sure if you did, but you sure as hell didn't push it. I would have. I do. Just be honest with me. If you think I am lying push me to tell you the truth. Because it will help, no matter how much I refuse to tell you anything. If you were a good friend, you would push.

I am not yelling guys, just one of those harsh truth kind of things. I apologize if I offend anyone, but I am not sorry. Just deal with it, but don't come crying to me, because you chose to read this.

On a lighter note, the......er, well lets just say this thing, I am finally starting to let go, I realize that it isn't going to go anywhere and it isn't anywhere. and hopefully my heart will listen too. I am not going to lie to myself anymore. This time it is actually working. It's time to free myself. Today. I like this feeling. (:

Taylor, I wish you were here, miss you everyday <3

Night <3

"And I'm on my way to believing..."